Meaningless thoughts

There are nights where I lay in bed with my face illuminated as I watch the spaces between the blinds light up segments of the room as though they were primarily different places fixated together. My eyes adjust to the flickering slashes of lighting as they tear and branch out into the sky. They cast light shadows in seconds at intervals I can never count or comprehend.

I listen to my iPod appreciating words and how they're strung together like perfectly beaded necklaces. The sound of breaths during the intervals of songs and crackling of the air conditioning as I stare at my phone while the world around seems like darkness. The black is beautiful. It takes my mind into a whirl with a pinch of nostalgia as I imagine things I never would during the midsts of day. These days I feel like I'm alone with music pounding it's way into my ears while I take my time to decipher people's thoughts. A ton on my heart as it presses against this invisible emotional base with my eyes drowning till I see everything in bokeh. I'm tired but my mind won't let me rest and it continues to question the same questions over questions I shut myself out of answering taking into comfort that Sean is next to me, asleep peacefully so therefore I should propose to do the same.

As I take gradual glances through the slit between both blinds, the sky painted orange, the wind rustling through shapeless trees, it puts me to ease. The clouds are high beyond reach lingering making decisions on when to embrace us as we sleep. My arms get tired of holding onto my phone above me and I begin rubbing my eyes till visions deform into smudges. "Meaningless thoughts is what I'm going to name this post", I tell myself. When the sun breaks, when we feel light creeping into our rooms or when we take refuge under the sheets, that's the beginning of a new day. That's the beginning of something new. So tonight I'm leaving my troubles on this wordy, meaningless box of text while I wait for the clouds to embrace my slumber. Till the dusk diminishes into dawn, I'm leaving my meaningless thoughts with no conclusion.

And I join the queue to your answer machine.

,D.